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Saturday, July 31, 2010 9:40 AM

My sister: Shake properly la!

Mama: Shake alr la!

My sister: SHAAAKEEEEEEEE!!!

Mama: Shake your boobie~

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Recently, there's alot of things that I have been thinking about. I need motivation.

Firstly, its studies. Well, yeah. Streaming is around the corner and I really want to score well. Since the start of Term 2, I did all my homeworks, without fail. Yet, I still failed my tests. I know that just doing homework is not enough for me to score well, especially when I don't have the foundation of topics such as algebra and everything. Yes, I've been begging my mother to buy me assesment books. Pfft, so unlikely of me. Seriously, I just want to score well for my streaming and 'O's. I don't care if it makes me a nerd of I have to sacrifice my life, I just want to. My mother doesn't even bother to get me a kamus. I love kamus. I love to read it when I'm bored and learn new words. I just don't get it why my mother won't let me get what I want.

Secondly, family. Eventhough I really look happy and carefree, there are really negative things that happen in my life. Okay, I won't post everything here. Usually, its my sister. They call me stupid just to bring me down. Fine, I'm stupid, I'm gullible, I'm honest. I admit to that. I just shrug it off whenever the call me that. Truthfully, it's very painful. You are trying your best to study, trying your best to please everyone, yet, these people try to bring you down. They think they're the best in the world just because they completed their 'O' and 'N' levels. You know what's the worst? It's when your parents are right in front of you when they call you that. Yet, they didn't seem to get angry. They freaking agree to it!

Third, friends. I tend to think positively on friends because they're not someone you spent your whole life with. Sometimes, they bring you down. Who cares, people like that are not worth it. I can handle those who give negative comments, those who are disgusting or even those who are very vain, but I can't stand those who tells secret to others, especially those who label me as a best friend. I can't stand it when people go, "OMG blablablabla.. Don't tell Aqylah." What are you treating me as? Someone who tells everyone everything? Hell no. I don't tell secrets to others. My weakness is just.. lying. When I lie, it just shows on my face. Anyway, back to the topic. I really appreciate those who gathers all her bestfriends and tells everything to them. I love them. :)

Fourth, future. I really have no future. Okay, I don't have any PLANS for my future. It used to be.. marrying some guy and becoming a pretty bride. -.- Ok fine, maybe it will come true but I'm talking about when I get out of school. What course do I want to take, what I want to be. I wanted to be a model, then I figured out that I couldn't handle flash. I wanted to be a singer, then some idiot had to bring me down and said you can't sing. I wanted to be a dancer, but dancing isn't really my talent and I don't really have interest in it. Then, there was a sudden urge to become a cabin attendant, but my sister had to freaking spoil it. Maybe I should just marry some rich brat and stay at a bangalow with 10000000 maids to clean the house. -.-

Fifth, love life. I really want to give up on this right now, until someone comes around and freaking stole it just by singing. I hate you, LOL. But really, I do talk to alot of guys but that doesn't mean I like them. Fine, I think some guys are better to talk to then girls because girls tend to have this bitchiness in them that will talk bad about a person. I am a very sensitive person that believes that the impression that your bestfriends have about you is EVERYTHING. That's why, when I don't like how a girl is acting, I'll tell it to my guy friends. One thing about having guy friends is that girls think you flirt around. I don't care, I know I don't, that's all. Okay I think the topic changed from love life to guy friends but you get it.

Okay, I'll end here.

I guess even if people bring me down, I'm going to keep one thinking positively. I also think that I should try to find my true self, my true friends and my dreams. Update ya'll later!